And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want for them is to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go but you keep holding on and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it but if it didn’t really matter you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.